Reconciled with Daddy, Got Pics of Baby
Posted on | December 21, 2008 | 1 Comment
For a short period of time Daddy and I reconciled. He came to me, apologized for everything he put me through and swore to me he was clean and had been for 1 month. He said he missed me and was ready to start bettering his life starting with taking care of me and our baby.
After talking to him consistently for a few days I decided to go visit him again just to see if he was telling the truth .. long story short he was not. He’s in deeper than I’ve ever known and it was the most depressing thing I’ve ever witnessed or have imagined that could happen to someone I care so much about.
He’s clinging to me, he doesn’t wanna let me out of his life. He’s clinging to our baby and see’s him or her as a glimmer of hope. I honestly believe that he cares for us, but doesn’t know how to handle those who do not provide for him. Substance that is.
He called me tonight yelling, ranting and crying in the phone that hes done with the drugs, done with his friends, done with everything. But I know he can’t be, he’ll just find more enablers and so called friends. I wish there was something I could do to help, but I know it’s not up to me. He says he’s honest to God serious this time and I hope for his sake he is.
I’m past being mad at him, hating him cause I finally understand. I care for him and want the best for him. I seriously hope he gets better soon. 
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In other news, I got to see my BAYBUH on Thursday!!! It was the most amazing thing I have ever witnessed. He was a busy little bee. He seemed to hate the camera and bright lights all up in his space so his face looked like he was crying. He was also waving his arms all around and kicking his little feet. It was the most amazing thing I’ve ever seen. Also to hear his little heart beating more and more rapidly as he got so excited awwww. I love my little person soooo much.
:D I’ve never been so happy or inlove in my life.
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February 19th, 2009 @ 3:25 pm
I wish I had ultrasound photos from the very beginning but I never had an ultrasound until I was 26 weeks,
The only benefit of that being that I got to find out he was a boy right away (But I’d already decided he was lol)