Is Love with a Baggage Queen Worth It?
Posted on | January 5, 2009 | 1 Comment
I should probably keep this to myself, but I’m so so happy and so so inlove. I can’t even sleep because I’m on such a cloud right now. Yeah I just got off the phone with my guy 
I was thinking about a post that I made on the Single Family Voices forum where a poster had said that he was thinking about dating a lady who is currently all jacked up from a relationship she just got out of and how he feels so attracted to her despite all of this.
Normally I would tell a person to run for the hills if they were considering a relationship with this type of person but it made me think of my current situation. I was fresh out of a relationship with Daddy, going through all the bitterness and disgust when Thumper started showing interest to me. Daddy and I were still on the outs and not speaking much when Thumper and I got close and began developing feelings for one another.
Lo and behold when things started to lift slightly off the ground for us Daddy called and wanted me back. I was faced with a tough decision and ended up choosing Daddy and Thumper was devastated. Funny though the whole time I was with Daddy, even when things were happy, all I could think about was Thumps and when I was alone I called him every single time. In my heart I knew he was who I wanted but I was as afraid of him as I was any other man really.
So Daddy and I had a huge fight while Thumper listened on the phone. I cried and he talked to me and soothed me and he kept me company my whole drive home. During that drive is when I realized how strong my feelings were for Thumps and that maybe I loved him.
A day later Daddy wanted to make up and have me back at his place and for some stupid reason I jumped and left Thumper behind, needless to say I crushed him again and I could hurt myself for that. Things didn’t go great with Daddy and even though we didn’t really fight I realized even more who I wanted in my life. So I left for home and called Thumper. He was mad at me but thank GOD he accepted me back.
I honestly don’t know what I would do without this man. He was there for me and understood me on a level no one else did or has when I’ve been at my lowest. When I’m with him I feel so, SO happy. When I’m sad just being in his arms or seeing a special look in his eye makes me feel ok. He makes me happy in so many ways and I just wanna do the same for him.
I showed him this blog and we worked out this misunderstanding regarding the baby and now I feel content, have understanding and am sure everything will work out.
Sorry for the mushy gushy post, but it feels so nice to finally be happy and have a good man in my life and I’m bored of talking about how much of a loser Daddy is lol. It’s probably too soon into our relationship to say all this to others but I just can’t help it.
I miss him so much. I hope to see him again for Valentines, but until then I’m gonna spray my pillow down with his scent and fall happily asleep. Nini everyone
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