Single Mom in a Birth Class
Posted on | June 5, 2009 | 3 Comments
Just a quick update. I’m in a very “blah” mood right now. Sleep is getting worse and more uncomfortable so I’m pretty moody lately. You know the cramps, pain and dehydration. Not to mention not being able to be in a comfortable position no matter what! 5 more freakin weeks!
Anyway I went to breastfeeding and birth classes this week. They have been .. interesting. I learned a lot in breast, but it’s a bit intimidating to me because I feel like I just won’t do it right. How to get the baby to latch on, how to position him correctly .. I just feel like I will fuck up or that my boobs are shaped too weird or too big for him to feed off of. I’m really excited about breastfeeding so I hope I don’t fail my son!
In birth we learned basically what most of us probably already knew .. such has to expect pain, that our vaginas are going to stretch out .. yada yada. The showed us a 30 minute video of several women going through the 3 stages or labor, including of course the birth. A few people flipped out at the head crowning and popping out including the lady next to me. I swore she was going to faint because she kept saying “OMG OMG OMG! I can’t do this EWW OMG!” and hyperventilating. She kinda threw a small fit and left the room then came back a little more recollected. Poor gal. Personally I was laughing my ass off because the woman in the video took a peak down there as the head was coming out and saw that her baby was covered in white in blood and she exclaimed “OMG! THAT DOESN’T LOOK LIKE A BABY! WHAT IS IT?”
Hilarious.
It was a little uncomfortable being in the birth class with my mom as my partner. Of course there were several other couples there .. maybe about 15 and they were all husband and wife or boyfriend and girlfriend. Naturally being around two people who conceived a baby together and witnessing them be so happy and inlove made me feel a little out of place and uncomfortable. But I sucked it up and took it in stride. In all it wasn’t too bad. None of them looked at me funny or treated me weird and not too many of them threw their happiness and excitement in my face. So that was cool.
Honestly though say things did work out with me and Daddy and he were supportive .. Sure I would have him in the room come delivery but I would still want my mom to be my support person. I mean ever since the moment I was born she was the person I always cried to when I was scared or in some sort of pain and she was always the person who made it all better. Naturally I’d feel more comfortable having her. Too bad she doesn’t really want to be. She says the whole thing is too overwhelming and frightening for her. 
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Moving on .. Monday morning I turned in my notice that I would be moving. I was hella pumped and hella excited that it was finally time for me and Jack to start our lives together fresh in a new place, that was until after I had signed the leave agreement the management lady told me the rent on 1 bedrooms had gone up $100. I thought “Hmm well I will just find something else” but then during my search I became overwhelmed and stressed out. I realied what a bad idea it is for me to worry about having a baby AND moving at the same time when I would rather just concentrate on one or the other. So the baby it is. Me and Jack will be making do in our small studio apartment for the next 9-12 months. I’m being optimistic about it. I think it will work out. Jut need to change a bit around.
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June 5th, 2009 @ 7:51 pm
It will totally work out. Promise.
I hope you get yourself some sleep one way or another. I remember those horrible nights.
June 7th, 2009 @ 1:42 pm
I had the same fears about nursing – but I promise, babies are born knowing how to nurse. He will figure it out and you two will get in the groove. I didn’t go to any breastfeeding classes, except the one that WIC made me take and the little impromptu class the nurses at the hospital tried to teach me, and once Monkey and I got started and figured everything out – none of the things that I learned in the class or the nurses taught me worked for us!
June 7th, 2009 @ 10:51 pm
Breast feeding is dmore difficult for some. My son wouldnt latch on right, and it was very painful to say the least.(Not to scare you or anything) SOme babies just latch right on and go to town!! But if you cant do it, dont be too hard on yourself, as long as you and Jack are happy and he’s healthy, thats all that matters. The nurses at the hospital I delivered at kind of mad you feel like a worthless mother if you even mentioned formula, but just remeber its YOUR child and whatever you feel is right, definitely is the right thing to do.