Feeling Meh, New Look for Blog

Posted on | January 13, 2009 | No Comments

I feel so sick, meh. I spent all of yesterday pretty much crying my eyes out, having a mental break down, dabbing into depression, being mad at Thumper, being mad at men, being mad at love, being mad at my life in general, feeling insecure, feeling inadequate. This morning all that was still there too. I woke up with a severe headache, dehydration, I didn’t eat for more than a day .. meh.

This morning after I cried and had my mini break down, I managed to pull myself together and think about my kiddo. This little person in my tummy who needs me now. So I managed to calm down and lift my spirits enough to gain an appetite and eat a little. I didn’t feel like getting out of bed so I ordered an overpriced sucky ass sandwich lol.
I have to go to WalMart in a second and reclaim the items I did not get and then maybe when I come home I’ll fix a stew, drink lots of water and Gatorade, maybe do some Yoga. I really, really need to exercise. I feel like a fat, lazy tub of lard.

I redid the look of my blog. The last was too boring, but I just now was in the mood to do something else. I hope everyone likes it. I hope no one minds my music on the right. I decided when my moods shift I would change the songs according to what I feel like or what I’m listening too. Right now its a bunch of depressing shit mostly lol. Oh, but def check out “How Can We Hang on to a Dream” by Tim Hardin on there. Yes, it explains a lot of how I feel right now but its also one of my most favoritest songs in the whole wide world!

Well off to the store!