Reoccurring Nightmares
Posted on | January 26, 2009 | 3 Comments
I have the weirdest nightmares sometimes .. like every few days I have about Daddy and they’re all the same but different. Basically in every dream he either kidnaps the baby or does something bad to it .. or he beats or murders me .. then kidnaps the baby. I have no idea why I dream this especially since he’s not some one I think about much anymore.
In the one I had last night he was playing a Saw-like “hide and seek” game with me after he kidnapped our kid and I was devastated. Never have I woken up so relieved and happy to have my baby safe and happy in my belly right close to me.
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I talked to my mom yesterday about what happened Saturday. She doesn’t understand what she said wrong so she refuses to apologize but she insists that despite saying “That poor baby doesn’t have a chance in hell with you as it’s mother and the father it ended up with” that she didn’t mean it that I’m a bad mother, just that I give the baby no chance at being healthy and growing up decent …. Ummm .. isn’t that the exact same thing just worded differently?
Whatever.
My little baby means the world to me. It’s the reason I do almost anything these days because I want to give it a good life, I want it to be comfortable and happy. And it will be! I want to be a great mommy, and I will be! 
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January 26th, 2009 @ 6:15 pm
YES!!! You absolutley will be. xo
January 27th, 2009 @ 9:28 pm
I think it’s a pregnancy thing. I had some crazy nightmares too when I was busy building my babe. They stayed off and on until the hormones were done with their roller-coaster ride (so sometime after she was born- the date escapes me). You’re not going crazy or anything. They do get freaky though, don’t they.
January 28th, 2009 @ 1:56 am
Haha they are crazy. I don’t get why he has to hurt me and kidnap the baby in every one of them though. So weird!