I Don’t Know
Posted on | August 17, 2009 | 5 Comments
So I talked to Daddy today. We had a long conversation about Jack and he’s decided that he’s happy and hopes to meet him soon.
I don’t know what to make of any of this. I don’t know what to do with what I’m thinking or all these different emotions .. from each end of the spectrum that I’m feeling. I don’t even know how to articulate them.
He wants to make it happen this week.
I don’t know. I don’t know.
We shall see.
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August 17th, 2009 @ 6:04 pm
You are going to be thinking “I don’t know” for a very long time — at least from my experience with Anna’s father. He would have these mood swings where he would really want to be a dad one month, and then he would ignore us the next. So, just be prepared for things to not work out so nice (although I obviously hope that it works out for the best!)
August 17th, 2009 @ 6:21 pm
That’s exactly what I’m afraid of, Lauren. I’m happy cause I can’t lie I dreamed he would come around like this, but at the same time I’ve been here before and know that he has the tendency to change his mind and back out. Lord knows I don’t want the drama or to relive the pain again.
August 18th, 2009 @ 7:45 pm
And so it begins…
I’m hoping for the best for you and that adorable chunk of love.
I know how confusing and difficult this shit is.
Hugs.
August 18th, 2009 @ 8:59 pm
Hey girl – I’m kinda brand new to your blog – its awesome. So how old is Jack? And, has your BD ever met Jack before or would this be the very first time? I can imagine how confusing it all must be right now. I hope it all works out best for Jack. Possibly he could gain a father from this meeting, no? That could be a good thing
I’m staying tuned….
August 19th, 2009 @ 12:03 am
Hef – thank you lady
CMC- welcome. I love your blog as well. My son is 6 weeks old and he’s never met his father before. His dad didn’t even know about him until Monday! So we’re kinda working on rebuilding a friendship and getting him involved with Jack.
I’m hoping for the best but it’s looking like EH.