Scared
Posted on | January 30, 2009 | 3 Comments
I’m so ready to have this baby and get everything over with. Arrrgh. I can’t take it anymore! I’m so scared. Somewhat excited, but mostly scared. I hate living my life with a bit of fear in my heart 
It’s just soo .. not how I like to do things. I’m afraid of the pain, afraid I can’t handle it, afraid something bad will happen to me. I have all the confidence in the world that my little one will be ok, but not so sure about myself …
Ohhh .. I gave in and called Daddy, but got no answer, no voicemail. That’s odd, huh? Again, I had no reason to call I just wanted to. *shrug* I had nothing to say. I wonder what’s up with that though. What’s going on in this crazy, dramatic life of his? Not that it matters, but does he remember he’s having a baby? If so what is he thinking? Does he know its getting close to time? Almost halfway there and he’ll have a baby son or daughter. How could he want to miss this? I don’t get it, but whatever.
Tags: labor and delivery > pregnant and alone
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January 30th, 2009 @ 3:54 am
The things we fear are usually scarier than reality. Breathe in and Breathe out, thats what keeps you alive.
Baby Steps my dear. xo
January 30th, 2009 @ 8:05 am
I too, was terrified of the pain!! But thats what they make pain medicine for!! LOL!! No really,it is so worth it when you see your child for the first time!! You tend to forget the pain! And you would do it all over again a million times to get your beautiful baby!! You’ll be fine!! You seem like a very strong woman!!
February 1st, 2009 @ 3:51 am
Thanks for the encouragement
I hope I’ll be ok!