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Sensitive

Posted on | February 7, 2009 | 5 Comments

I’ve never been much of a sensitive person. I’ve never been much of a person to fall inlove, much of a person to stress, much of a person to care much what other people think or to be bothered by things .. but here I am. I’m an emotional wreck. I’m super sensitive, I cry about every thing some days, I get my feelings hurt all of the time. It’s pregnancy hormones, I know. But I’m starting to think maybe in addition to that, that I’ve made all the wrong decisions in life, maybe I’ve chosen all the wrong people to be in my life, maybe I’ve taken too many wrong turns in life.

I feel trapped. I feel like this town is tainted. Like this apartment is tainted, like my life is tainted. But what can I do? How can things get better? What would make me more happy? I have no answers. I just know I want desperately to be in better spirits, I want desperately to be genuinely happy, I want desperately to have real friends, people who really care about me surrounding me. Not the fakes.

I just want to cleanse everything. I want all to be pure and new, I want my baby to enter into a world where things are happy, nice and … not like this. But I just feel like I can’t, like I don’t know how to achieve any of this!

I don’t know.

Category: Mommy Needs Therapy, Single and Pregnant

Comments

5 Responses to “Sensitive”

  1. Tam King
    February 7th, 2009 @ 4:29 am

    Your allowed to be sensitive, dont be ashamed of how you feel, its what makes you you. And its the reason your baby will be so very loved, because your sensitive to his/her needs along with your own. :)

  2. Bridgette
    February 7th, 2009 @ 5:40 am

    I hope youre right Tam! I honestly do feel like I’m doing everything wrong!

  3. Hef
    February 7th, 2009 @ 6:21 pm

    It’s going to get better, hon! Promise.

    I was a miserable wreck emotionally through the majority of my pregnancy. I’ve never cried so much or so hard and for so long… oh, it was terrible!

    Let yourself cry and feel down from time to time.

    Try to find things to do for yourself that you enjoy.

    You’re doing an amazing job with all of this!

  4. Elisabeth
    February 7th, 2009 @ 9:49 pm

    I’m 10 weeks pregnant and am also newly single, so we are in a similar situation. I know it’s hard, but know that you are not alone. Please email me.

  5. Tam King
    February 8th, 2009 @ 12:37 pm

    Trust me, there is only a couple of things you CAN do wrong when your pregnant. As long as you eat well, and dont overdo it, your doing whats right for your baby And believe me when i say i was the biggest most hormonal BITCH when i was pregnant with Lucy. I dont know how Matt dealt with me, i swear if I was him, I would have run screaming to the nearest safe place and refused to come back until it was over……. in fact, somedays i think he still might… :)

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