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Holidays and Baby

Posted on | November 29, 2009 | 3 Comments

I haven’t been online much at all the past week or two because my mom has had this new obsession with me with me and my son spending the night at her house. She will actually plead for us to which makes me feel bad saying no. I guess she’s really lonely or something .. or she’s afraid because she thinks my apartment is haunted. I kinda do too but that’s another story.

Thanksgiving was really nice .. I was so happy to be spending it with my son for the first time ever .. but all the same these holidays are kinda rough. Everyone loves the new baby you know so they fuss over him and pass him around a lot. There are so many faces he isn’t used to and so many loud voices that he was so overwhelmed. Odd thing is when he’s around people he doesn’t know he doesn’t cry. When he has had enough of a particular situation he kinda gets this worried look on his face and he might groan a little, yet he’s too concerned with what’s going on that he won’t eat or sleep either. I took him home that night, just us two, and he really let me have it. All of that pent up frustration .. I never heard him cry so hard!

One more to go! I think we will be having a big Christmas dinner as well.
Speaking of I don’t know what to get for my son .. I mean Christmas came pretty early this ear because last month I bought him a Baby Einstein tunnel, this past week I bought him $200 worth of winter clothes and toys. Plus he doesn’t even know the difference.

He can crawl now, he’s sitting up independently, he can roll, switch directions and push up on his toes when he’s on his hands and knees. He’s mostly obsessed with trying to stand, walk and jump .. so I really wanna get him a Jumperoo but I have a cross fear of him not wanting to play with it .. and also my aunts or cousins buying him one. A couple of them have said they want to get him one or a walker (which btw I don’t want and keep trying to drop hints not to get we have carpet!) .. so either way if I get one now I fear I will waste money.

Oh yeah .. a random thought .. one thing thats currently REALLY bugging me when I let him stay with other people is how cute everyone thinks it is that my son is entranced with television so they will sit right there close infront of it with him for as long as possible and just let him stare. At first I didn’t mind if it was occasional and only for a minute or two but now it’s starting to chap my ass because I feel it’s the making of a bad habit. I don’t watch TV myself and I don’t wanna raise my son to watch tv either. I mean there are so many other better things to do than just sit there for hours .. so this is another habit I’m going to have to get my relatives to break.

The same applies to me. Lately I feel bored and like I need to be intellectually stimulated somehow because I don’t feel I’ve been learning much of anything. I think in Jan I will go back to school if I can.

Anyway, this entry is all over the place and pretty random but I just wanted to catch up. I’m going back to bed now.

Comments

3 Responses to “Holidays and Baby”

  1. hef
    November 29th, 2009 @ 11:56 am

    Going back to school really satisified that “need to use my brain!” urge that you’re describing. Even if it drives me nuts sometimes.

    I didn’t get Aubs a single thing for her first Christmas. Ha.
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  2. Bridgette
    November 29th, 2009 @ 12:33 pm

    I think it will for me too. I’m not going to take on a huge courseload or go for a degree, but I’d like to take a few classes to put more “good to know” information in my brain.

    I think I may just go on and get a Jumperoo for my son so I can make sure he has the one I’ve been eyebaling and if he gets something similar for Christmas I’ll do a return and just keep the cash :D

  3. Satsuki
    December 1st, 2009 @ 12:12 pm

    We used the Playskool Step Start Walk & Ride instead of a regular walker. I guess it’s selling for $17.79 at Target (maybe cheaper at Walmart?) and they have a printable coupon for $5 off at coupons.com
    .-= Check Out Satsuki’s blog! "Cyber Monday – Old Navy" =-.

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