I Called Him
Posted on | November 11, 2008 | 2 Comments
I feel stupid because since Friday I’ve called the father of my baby maybe about 10 times. I was under the impression that he had blocked me because every time I called it would ring once and start playing music which I assumed was his voice mail so I would hang up and call again later. I just wanted to talk to him voice to voice about our baby and what the final plan was. 4 days later and I’ve heard nothing so I decided to call and just leave a message. I was surprised to learn he changed his ringer to a song … ooooooooooh my god he must think I’m a stalker. LOL
But its obvious either way he’s ignoring me. So I put the ball in his court. I told him I’m keeping our little baby and jsut called to see what his thoughts were and what he wanted to do as the Daddy.
I wonder how long he will ignore me this time? It pisses me off that every time he’s angry at me he just ignores me instead of calling it off or telling me whats on his mind? UGH it’s not fair. Especially since this time it’s not just ME, it’s me and our kiddo.
Anyway, I suppose I’m feeling a little better. Trying to see the bright side of having my little one. I don’t hate my baby, think that he or she is negative, or that any of this is his or her fault. I’m just trying to figure out if any of t his is worth it. To be honest a week ago I didn’t even wanna be a mom or figured if i were gonna be one I’d wait many many years from now.
Look at me now. Pregnant by someone I don’t even love, and was only in a relationship with 1 month. I feel so pathetic.
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June 17th, 2009 @ 1:57 pm
Hey there, I know how you feel because I am pregnant with someone whom I was with only a month. He played me. He wants nothing to do with me or “my problem.”
Have you had your baby yet? I hope you are doing okay. I don’t know why there is such horrible unfairness in this world.
Good luck! At least your making the right decision, and far stronger than he will ever be…:)
June 24th, 2009 @ 5:42 pm
I’m doing great and I hope you are as well! My son isn’t here yet .. he has about 2 more weeks to go hopefully.
Thank you so much for the well wishes