Day Care
Posted on | January 26, 2010 | 2 Comments
I’m kinda stressed right now and trying to get my life on track. Since my son was born I don’t get to work as much as I need to to keep us afloat. I make enough to pay the bills but anything extra comes out of my savings and now my savings is $100. I need a new car, I need us out and into a larger apartment by July or August and I need a way to be able to afford my medical bills if Medicaid won’t extend my coverage for another couple months until I can afford private insurance. Grr.
Ontop of all else my mom and I had a fight (like always lately) and I decided to cut her out of our lives until she gets her attitude adjusted.
I’ve been putting up with her bullshit since I had the baby. She treats me like I’m so stupid and such a burden to her when I rarely ever ask her for anything. Sunday morning I woke up in terrible pain which I thought I would have to go back to the hospital for so I called her and asked her to come watch my son and drop me off there. She came over bitching saying I’m ruining her life by calling her just because I’m in pain and since he’s my son I need to deal with him whether I’m in pain or not. On top of that she told me she wouldn’t take my to the hospital but she called 911 and told the EMSA to come get me even though I told her NOT to since I don’t need another $1400 medical bill.
I told her I wouldn’t treat her this way if she needed me and to think about how she would feel if I did treat her this way. She didn’t listen to one word I was saying and told me to shut up because she’s sick of me. That’s when I kicked her ass out and told her I don’t wanna see her and she’s not allowed to see my baby again. He doesn’t need to be around that type of toxic shit or witness anyone treat his mother like that infront of him time and time again. I guess obviously she didn’t take me seriously because she called me about 50 times yesterday, then she drove my aunt over and asked her to ask me if she could come up. I pretty much laughed at her and gave a big fat NO! If anything she needs time to think about how shes acting and how she can change. IF she doesn’t feel the need to change then we really don’t need her negativity.
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Anyway, so that’s the deal with my mom. Since she nor any of my family can watch my son reliably for me while I work I decided to enroll him in day care. This is so fricken hard! First of all it’s hard to find one I feel comfortable with. One where the workers seem nice andthe environment seems fun, safe and sanitary.
Second of all it’s hard to think about leaving him with strangers for a few hours a day. He’s been by my side since he was born so he has an attachment to me. I wonder which of us it’s going to be harder for. I’m sure he will be able to adapt faster. I did 2 tours today, got one more in a couple of hours and another on Thursday then I will make my decision which will hopefully be the right one.
I know in the end it will be good for me and him. I will be able to make a living for us, get a break/much needed rest and run errands. He will be able to gain a bit of independence and make new friends/be around people his age. Those are all good things right?
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I’m trying to think if anything new is going on with Jack.
- Eating solids 3x a day now. Thinking about introducing him to finger foods like cooked apples or something because he wants to feed himself.
- He understands no and is starting to learn what is OK and what is wrong. He knows he’s wrong to go into the bathroom or kitchen without mommy. That doesn’t mean he doesn’t try to sneak in anyway.
- He has his big boy bed. Initially it was hard to transition him over from cosleeping, but he spends long hours in the bed now.
- He has a love of being naked. I had to buy him overalls because he loves to take off his pants and diaper when I’m not looking. Just like his dad LOL.
That’s about all I can think of for now.
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January 26th, 2010 @ 10:10 pm
I think daycare is a great idea! My son has been attached to me since he was born too (he’s now 3) I never left him with anyone except my mom and maybe my best friend a couple times, and now I am regretting that! Not that I would want to drop him off with just anyone, but I even tried to take him to church and put him in the day care, and he was kicking and screaming, and needless to say I was in tears too!! So the social skills will be wonderful in a couple years!!
And about your medicaid…I’m not sure how it is where you live, but I am on medicaid and have been since I was pregnant with my son. They have coverage available for mothers even if you aren’t pregnant! Good luck with everything!!!!
January 29th, 2010 @ 2:18 pm
Thanks for the tips Stephanie. I’m hoping for the best with Daycare and I think he will do fine.