YAY! YAY! HOORAY!!!

Posted on | November 12, 2008 | No Comments

I feel like my funk has been lifted. Right now I just don’t give a shit about daddy. I’m able to laugh my butt off, I’m able to sing, I’m able to dance, I’m able to feel happy and have conversations with my friends that aren’t about how much of an asshole he is! Haha.

I feel like being a mama isn’t so bad, that it will actually be a great thing and I’m able to be a bit excited about it now. I’m even starting to feel bad that a couple of days ago I thought about abortion or was almost wishing I could be dead than have to be in this situation. Fuck that. I’m happy to be alive and I want my kid! My baby will probably be the most beautiful and perfect thing Daddy could ever give me.

I don’t even wanna be pregnant I just wanna finally hold it in my arms. I don’t know how I’m gonna get through another 8 months. I wanna see my baby already. I wanna see what I made. What’s it’s sex gonna be? What will it look like? What will it’s personality be like? Arrgh I want my little person!!!! I know when it’s pooping, crying and being bad I’m probably gonna wish it back in the womb though ..lol.

I feel like I’m having a little boy. So did Daddy. And hes good at “feeling” things. That’s why I mostly refer to be as my son or “he”.

HAHAHAHA LOOK WHAT I GET!!!

and OMG this baby is too funny!

Hehehehe. I’m like deliriously happy and hyper right now. In contrast to my other posts those who are reading are probably thinking “OMG!! What a PSYCHO!” LOL!