Raw and Honest Blog of a New Single Mom

I am a single mother of a biracial baby boy just trying to make it on my own. This journey is hard, yet rewarding. Blogging is my therapy, these words are my heart, and people doing better and being inspired by what I have written is my passion and hope.

And Now He’s Gone ..

When I made THIS POST I thought more than anything in the world that’s what I wanted. For my son to know who his father was. But why when I got him and his cooperation I didn’t have not one good feeling about it and instead was terribly apprehensive and constantly on the verge of [...]

This is About Our Son!

So why is he saying he wants to get with me? Like seriously. And when I say “I hope our son inherits your musical talent. Maybe you’ll work with him someday on your instruments!” during our conversation his reply should not be: “I was just remembering .. WOW you gave great head ” Nor should [...]

I Don’t Know

So I talked to Daddy today. We had a long conversation about Jack and he’s decided that he’s happy and hopes to meet him soon. I don’t know what to make of any of this. I don’t know what to do with what I’m thinking or all these different emotions .. from each end of [...]

Walking Away and Letting Go

By T. D. Jakes There are people who can walk away from you. And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk. I don’t want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see [...]

Dear Daddy

Why do I have to go through this shit all over again? I spent my whole pregnancy dealing with this and finally came to a point where I was OK with my situation as a single mother. I was OK with him not being around, I became OK with the fact that he’s a drug [...]

Fear of My Child’s Father

So I did respond to Daddy. I just couldn’t help myself because I’m tired of the way he treats me. I let him abuse me verbally and emotionally for so long. I let him make me feel like shit .. I just kept my mouth shut. I quietly hoped if I didn’t egg him on [...]

HE’S NOT MINE!!!!!!

Yup. That’s what daddy randomly left to me today in offline IM. DADDY: (29/4/09 12:20 PM): HES NOT MINE!!!! Oh fucking really? You know, I can’t decide if I seriously wanna reply this fuck back and say “No he’s not yours, he’s MINE because as of today you haven’t done a damn thing for him [...]

Single Deadbeat “Fathers”

I’m judgmental of single fathers. I admit it, but not in a way that you would think. I’ll start off by saying I’m in no position to be dating right now. I’m just not ready. But I will converse. I’ve come to find that I am quick to shun and feel sour about any guy [...]

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