Child Support
The whole process intimidates me. The possibilities scare me.
Yet the time is nearing and I feels it should be done.
Too Much Information
I have a habit of TMI. Maybe because at the time it doesn’t seem like TMI since I’m an open person who really has nothing to hide, but I’m beginning to think that I go too far. For instance today two of my family members asked if I had spoken to Daddy recently and instead [...]
Sleeplessness and More Work
I’m so tired. I don’t really get to sleep much anymore because … I don’t know. I find myself being disturbed by someone or something just about every night or morning .. a phone call, a strange noise, a weird dream, a dry throat, an uncomfortable position. Meh. It’s getting so old.
To add on even [...]
Why Doesn’t He Care?
I’m feeling so frustrated with Daddy right now. My temper is fuming and I type this as anger-tears flood out of my eyes down onto my laptop keyboard.
I can’t stop thinking about it. It’s a permanent thought that’s killing me right now. It’s starting to hurt me all over again that he doesn’t care about [...]
Cussed Daddy Out
With my pregnancy half over I’d been fighting back and forth with the decision of whether or not to tell Daddy anything about his baby as sort of an FYI just so he can never say that even though he’s made no moves to include himself in our lives, that I never did anything to [...]
Scared
I’m so ready to have this baby and get everything over with. Arrrgh. I can’t take it anymore! I’m so scared. Somewhat excited, but mostly scared. I hate living my life with a bit of fear in my heart It’s just soo .. not how I like to do things. I’m afraid of [...]
Cravings and Urges
For some reason right now I feel compelled to call Daddy. Why? I have no idea. My fingers have been twitching to do this for awhile now. I don’t really have anything to say to him, nothing to ask him, nothing to share. I just wanna do it. I’ve been fighting off the urge though [...]
Reoccurring Nightmares
I have the weirdest nightmares sometimes .. like every few days I have about Daddy and they’re all the same but different. Basically in every dream he either kidnaps the baby or does something bad to it .. or he beats or murders me .. then kidnaps the baby. I have no idea why I [...]
One Person Can’t Love Enough For Two Pt. 2
Hihihi I’m back. I’m trying to decide if I want to make this one long post or break it up into many mini posts.
So I said in my last post I would catch this blog up on the second half of things that went down when I was at Daddy’s and make a Pt. 2. [...]
One Person Can’t Love Enough for Two Pt. 1
I hope everyone had a good holiday! Mine was very nice. I got to spend lots of time with my family, I ate LOTS, got some money, Lakers beat the Celtics …
Ok, I have a confession to make. From December 18-December 24, minus December 21 when I wrote my last entry I was [...]
