Raw and Honest Blog of a New Single Mom

I am a single mother of a biracial baby boy just trying to make it on my own. This journey is hard, yet rewarding. Blogging is my therapy, these words are my heart, and people doing better and being inspired by what I have written is my passion and hope.

Reoccurring Nightmares

I have the weirdest nightmares sometimes .. like every few days I have about Daddy and they’re all the same but different. Basically in every dream he either kidnaps the baby or does something bad to it .. or he beats or murders me .. then kidnaps the baby. I have no idea why I [...]

One Person Can’t Love Enough For Two Pt. 2

Hihihi I’m back. I’m trying to decide if I want to make this one long post or break it up into many mini posts. So I said in my last post I would catch this blog up on the second half of things that went down when I was at Daddy’s and make a Pt. [...]

One Person Can’t Love Enough for Two Pt. 1

I hope everyone had a good holiday! Mine was very nice. I got to spend lots of time with my family, I ate LOTS, got some money, Lakers beat the Celtics … Ok, I have a confession to make. From December 18-December 24, minus December 21 when I wrote my last entry I was staying [...]

Reconciled with Daddy, Got Pics of Baby

For a short period of time Daddy and I reconciled. He came to me, apologized for everything he put me through and swore to me he was clean and had been for 1 month. He said he missed me and was ready to start bettering his life starting with taking care of me and our [...]

Better Feeling :)

I wanna thank everyone for the support and words of wisdom. Those who comment, email or talk to me in other forms I really appreciate it. When I wasn’t posting I took a giant time out. I needed a break from thinking about babies and motherhood and I needed a break from obsessing over Daddy. [...]

Confirmed

I had to get medically confirmed yesterday that I am indeed knocked up. Heh. They said I’m about 6 weeks and my baby should be due July 14. When I got home Daddy signed online but didn’t message me. I decided to take the plunge. I messaged him first and simply said “Hey Daddy. Just [...]

Nightmares

I’ve been having what seem like nightmares every time I go to sleep but they’re really not. One was an innocent dream about me shopping for the baby yet it was making me toss and turn. The others are unfortunately about Daddy. In some of them he calls me, in some of them he doesn’t. [...]

Overload

I’m only 1 month pregnant and already I’m showing too many symptoms. Teehee. My GAWD .. cramps, tender boobs, heart burn, mood swings. I feel so depressed right now and really for no reason. Am I gonna bitch about Daddy this entry? Eh, not really cause I don’t feel like its him this time. Right [...]

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