Am I Not Commitment-worthy?
I’ve been having these nightmares lately that are kinda strange. In them I see Thumper and a girl who is his new girlfriend. Naturally it breaks my heart. His friends gather around me and start laughing at me. They heckle me and say such things as “Thumper doesn’t love you anymore!” “You mean nothing to [...]
My Baby’s Sex Confirmed :D
Wow, soooo delayed follow up post! I was celebrating my baby all yesterday. I had my ultrasound appointment, my mom was my guest. We sat down nervously and anxiously awaiting what we might see on the grainy black and white ultrasound monitor. I had no idea what was going on or what was being seen [...]
ValenDOOM’s Day
Valendoom’s Day was fine .. I survived. I didn’t see too many happy couples rubbing it in my face that they were paired up and living in loving bliss all while I was a single, swollen and pregnant, recently dumped, and furious at my sperm donor mom .. LOL (jk .. kinda. It’s not that [...]
Baby Must-Haves
I’m starting to realize things and I’m starting to guess Mr. Perfect was more perfect in my eyes than in reality. Maybe he’s just normal? Maybe I’m sensitive because I’m tired of being around people with addictions. To hear the sweetest guy I’ve ever known brag about how much he intakes, how he feels like [...]
Cravings and Urges
For some reason right now I feel compelled to call Daddy. Why? I have no idea. My fingers have been twitching to do this for awhile now. I don’t really have anything to say to him, nothing to ask him, nothing to share. I just wanna do it. I’ve been fighting off the urge though [...]
Getting Stronger .. and Stranger
I woke up this morning with a whole new attitude, a fed up one. I’m tired of feeling hurt, feeling used, feeling pissed, feeling heartbroken, feeling disappointed. I’m coming to terms with being pregnant .. it isn’t so bad really. But I’ve let all of these people into my life, into my heart, into my [...]
Feeling Meh, New Look for Blog
I feel so sick, meh. I spent all of yesterday pretty much crying my eyes out, having a mental break down, dabbing into depression, being mad at Thumper, being mad at men, being mad at love, being mad at my life in general, feeling insecure, feeling inadequate. This morning all that was still there too. [...]
More Heartache for Mommy
So Thumper broke up with me this morning. Everything was going fantastic for us, or so I thought. However, I could sense in the past couple of days that something was wrong as he suddenly pulled away from me, so today I decided to finally ask him to talk to me about it. Long story [...]
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