Permission to Propose
I do have an update about the entry I wrote last week, about how my mom was jealous of Daddy and his family, their roles in our lives and how she wanted them out. Well last Sunday I guess something happened at church and that night she called me and asked how she could write [...]
Terrible Twos and the Single Mama
Terrible Twos is the understatement of the century when describing my son’s behavior lately. He’s an absolutely NIGHTMARE. An embarrassment. It’s almost humorous how strangers go from being like “Wow what a cute little boy” to giving me looks of pity and disbelief. I swear I cannot take him anywhere! He makes me look like [...]
Romanticizing the Useless
I have a few topics I want to write about .. I’m going to try to remember them all but I probably won’t. I may spread them out in multiple posts as they come to mind. First I want to address the depression and the issues I have with Daddy that I wrote about. My [...]
Putting My Truth and Honesty Out There
I think by having an online blog causes bloggers to lack authenticity, no matter what they may say. To an extent most bloggers blog to attract readers, to keep them interested, to not offend, to hide from those they know in real life. While once upon a time I enjoyed writing fiction, I cannot be [...]
Is This Really My Life As I’ll Know It?
Wow, how do you even get over the used up feeling? Between being impregnated by a loser boy who never gave a fuck a bout me and could give two shits about his child (and a boy who I never loved or wanted a serious relationship with either)… to being broken up with by a [...]
Sensitive
I’ve never been much of a sensitive person. I’ve never been much of a person to fall inlove, much of a person to stress, much of a person to care much what other people think or to be bothered by things .. but here I am. I’m an emotional wreck. I’m super sensitive, I cry [...]
Lonely, Depressed, Distressed …
Today I just had a realization of how alone I am. How upside down my world is. How my life is nothing like I imagined. How I feel so ashamed and disappointed with myself. Saying I’m alone could be a huge stretch, I do have family members, most of which are excited about my child [...]
Getting Stronger .. and Stranger
I woke up this morning with a whole new attitude, a fed up one. I’m tired of feeling hurt, feeling used, feeling pissed, feeling heartbroken, feeling disappointed. I’m coming to terms with being pregnant .. it isn’t so bad really. But I’ve let all of these people into my life, into my heart, into my [...]
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