Feeling Meh, New Look for Blog
I feel so sick, meh. I spent all of yesterday pretty much crying my eyes out, having a mental break down, dabbing into depression, being mad at Thumper, being mad at men, being mad at love, being mad at my life in general, feeling insecure, feeling inadequate. This morning all that was still there too. [...]
More Heartache for Mommy
So Thumper broke up with me this morning. Everything was going fantastic for us, or so I thought. However, I could sense in the past couple of days that something was wrong as he suddenly pulled away from me, so today I decided to finally ask him to talk to me about it. Long story [...]
Nightmares
I’ve been having what seem like nightmares every time I go to sleep but they’re really not. One was an innocent dream about me shopping for the baby yet it was making me toss and turn. The others are unfortunately about Daddy. In some of them he calls me, in some of them he doesn’t. [...]
Where Are You?!
Day 6, no call from Daddy I’m still counting, still caring. How long is he going to ignore us? What’s he doing right now? Does he ever think of me and baby? If so what kind of thoughts cross his mind? Does he still talk about us? If he does what does he say? Ugh [...]
I Sleep So I Can’t Feel
I’ve slept a lot today. Mostly so I can pretend that none of this is real right now. Yes, I’m still confused, trying to find out what to do, what I’m going to do with my life, my child. It’s so hard. On Friday when I left the Dad of my kid I was very [...]
Having Second Thoughts Today
Another day and I am trying to get by. I managed to successfully wake up this morning and see that the father of my child had not called me, messaged me or emailed me (the last time I have talked to him is Friday) and I did not cry. I managed to go through most [...]
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