Fear of My Child’s Father
So I did respond to Daddy. I just couldn’t help myself because I’m tired of the way he treats me. I let him abuse me verbally and emotionally for so long. I let him make me feel like shit .. I just kept my mouth shut. I quietly hoped if I didn’t egg him on [...]
Not Such Good News
I had a doctor appointment yesterday and there was a little bit of news to be concerned about. 1) I gained 15 lbs in 1 month. 15 LBS IN ONE MONTH!!! I was actually a bit ashamed and embarrassed when the nurse gasped in horror as I stepped on the scale. Wow, I’m hungry I’m [...]
Channeling my Energy
So after my angry guy rant post I decided that the last thing I need is to allow myself to feel like this way any longer. To be pissed, to be hurt, to be resentful, to be despondent. It seems to be a full circle that never ends because I allow things to be that [...]
Am I Not Commitment-worthy?
I’ve been having these nightmares lately that are kinda strange. In them I see Thumper and a girl who is his new girlfriend. Naturally it breaks my heart. His friends gather around me and start laughing at me. They heckle me and say such things as “Thumper doesn’t love you anymore!” “You mean nothing to [...]
Reoccurring Nightmares
I have the weirdest nightmares sometimes .. like every few days I have about Daddy and they’re all the same but different. Basically in every dream he either kidnaps the baby or does something bad to it .. or he beats or murders me .. then kidnaps the baby. I have no idea why I [...]
Nightmares
I’ve been having what seem like nightmares every time I go to sleep but they’re really not. One was an innocent dream about me shopping for the baby yet it was making me toss and turn. The others are unfortunately about Daddy. In some of them he calls me, in some of them he doesn’t. [...]
