Raw and Honest Blog of a New Single Mom

I am a single mother of a biracial baby boy just trying to make it on my own. This journey is hard, yet rewarding. Blogging is my therapy, these words are my heart, and people doing better and being inspired by what I have written is my passion and hope.

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Unwanted Pity

I went to my cousin’s wife’s funeral yesterday at which I saw a lot of people I knew. It was weird how my mom would greet people and proudly say that she’s a grandmother now and the people would look at me with so much pity. One lady said “Bless you .. but you know [...]

Closer

I should be sleeping, but I’m not really sleepy. Actually I can’t sleep well at all lately. I feel like my breathing is different when unconscious so I have a harder time .. it’s hard to explain. I guess I feel like yes I’m unconscious and technically sleeping, but my body never rests. Just a [...]

Rain, Snow and Wishes

I’ve been stuck in the apartment about 4 days now due to rainstorms for 2 days and now a snow storm! In spring! I look out my window at 8:30 pm and everything is bright white .. which is very pretty .. but I’m going stir crazy dammit! I want OUT! I’ve been spending most [...]

Fighting the Mask of Pregnancy

I had to go to Clinique and MAC and spend some serious cash because my skin is shit. Yes, call me pimple face right along with Cholasma monster aka the Mask of Pregnancy. I swear this little boy is sucking up all my beauty because I have NEVER had skin problems before, but of course [...]

Enlightenment

I have been avoiding people lately. Namely my friend, S, that guy I wrote about the other day, Thumper and a handful of other people. I feel like it’s mandatory not only for myself and my sanity, but for my little boy as well. I guess I feel like with time there comes a place [...]

Sunday Babble

I ain’t too sure about this redecorating thing. I want to badly but I’m getting nowhere because of my lower body pain. Whether it be walking, bending .. getting around period, the pain flares up to something nearly unbearable. But I guess as far as decorating goes I’m trying to do too much at once. [...]

Giovanni

I want my little boy NOW. I want him in my arms. I want to look at his sweet little face. I want to kiss him and cuddle him and tell him how much I love him. He’s so active lately. SO active! Dancing around in my tummy .. kicking me, punching me, squirming around [...]

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