Push, Bridgette! Push!
Fuck it. Fuck him. I really can’t do it anymore. I’ve spent 5 months with him on my mind. 5 months worrying about him more than I have any other guy before. 5 months stressing, dreaming, giving him so much of my energy .. and he’s not even thinking of me. He doesn’t love me [...]
I’m Trying to be Nonchalant About It
So I talked to him. I don’t even want to say his name. He apologized for disappearing out of my life for the past 2 months and went on to attempt a deep conversation with me. “I want to change my life”, he said. “I realize that I’ve done a lot to fuck things up, [...]
Site’s Up, Money’s Down!
Hello everyone. I’m baaaack! My site was hacked, was momentarily shut down and I was unable to get in. Because of the malware some of the sites in the hosting system got mixed up and were redirecting people from my site through the 404. I hope no one clicked around on the redirected sites, if [...]
Registration Registration Registration
I feel like a dummy and a bit overwhelmed because I didn’t know there was so much registration work to do for delivery and I’m caught nearly in my final month doing it. Let’s see what all I accomplished today: I scheduled my Childbirth classes for 4 weeks next month. I’m hoping I don’t run [...]
Baby Shower Pictures
Dang it’s been about a year and a half since I updated! I’m just coming off the baby shower weekend and had a great time. There was some (lots) drama between the family getting frustrated and going for each other’s necks and the cake lady canceling our cake at 9pm the night before the shower, [...]
Positive
Thanks to every one who supported me in my last blog entry. I really appreciate it and feel much better now. I’m so over Daddy and I’m so over negativity that I kinda want to just delete that entry and forget about every thing .. but I’ll leave it. I know some times it can [...]
Fear of My Child’s Father
So I did respond to Daddy. I just couldn’t help myself because I’m tired of the way he treats me. I let him abuse me verbally and emotionally for so long. I let him make me feel like shit .. I just kept my mouth shut. I quietly hoped if I didn’t egg him on [...]
