The Focus is on My Son
Day by day things are getting easier. I’m re-adjusting, restoring my mind back to how it was pre-August 17. I think I’m OK now. I’m not going to lie and say I don’t miss him. That it’s not hard for me to see him sign online and fight the want to message him. But I [...]
My Future Life
I was talking to one of my good friends last night and he for some reason or another started teasing me about the psychic I saw June of last year. Honestly I almost completely forgot about that experience, but I did save the transcript. Reading over it I remember and realize just how right he [...]
The Escape
“Sometimes I feel I’ve got to run away
I’ve got to get away
From the pain you drive into the heart of me”
The lyrics to that whole song ring so true to me at this moment. This town, this state is SUFFOCATING. I feel like I’m cooped in with no where to go. I feel like [...]
I Hate This Part
It never fails. He’s in and out of my life, making me promises .. promises I hardly believe, yet I always have hope. Somehow my mind seems to always erase the bad and try to dig for the good. Somehow I continue to love him in a morbidly masochistic kind of way. I’m not in [...]
And Now He’s Gone ..
When I made THIS POST I thought more than anything in the world that’s what I wanted. For my son to know who his father was.
But why when I got him and his cooperation I didn’t have not one good feeling about it and instead was terribly apprehensive and constantly on the verge of tears?
I [...]
This is About Our Son!
So why is he saying he wants to get with me? Like seriously.
And when I say “I hope our son inherits your musical talent. Maybe you’ll work with him someday on your instruments!” during our conversation his reply should not be:
“I was just remembering .. WOW you gave great head ”
Nor should he [...]
I Don’t Know
So I talked to Daddy today. We had a long conversation about Jack and he’s decided that he’s happy and hopes to meet him soon.
I don’t know what to make of any of this. I don’t know what to do with what I’m thinking or all these different emotions .. from each end of the [...]
The Appeal of Dating Single Mothers
When I first learned I was to become a single mother I was very worried about how others might view me, especially potential partners when it came time for me to date.
Dating a single parent always seemed less than ideal. I would hear words like “baggage”, “damaged goods” thrown around along with the unappealing idea [...]
Walking Away and Letting Go
By T. D. Jakes
There are people who can walk away from you.
And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk.
I don’t want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached [...]
