Romanticizing the Useless
I have a few topics I want to write about .. I’m going to try to remember them all but I probably won’t. I may spread them out in multiple posts as they come to mind. First I want to address the depression and the issues I have with Daddy that I wrote about. My [...]
Here He Comes Again ..
Funny that right after my last post, after I really let him have it virtually Daddy decided to pop up at the most random of times saying the most random shit. I can’t even be mad anymore because he’s far surpassed frustration territory and has ventured onto funny/sad territory. Seriously he completely wiped away my [...]
Putting My Truth and Honesty Out There
I think by having an online blog causes bloggers to lack authenticity, no matter what they may say. To an extent most bloggers blog to attract readers, to keep them interested, to not offend, to hide from those they know in real life. While once upon a time I enjoyed writing fiction, I cannot be [...]
Sex
I’ve made the vow to myself to give up Fuck Buddy relationships and to take sex and who I do it with more seriously. I’ve only had one true FB, but I’ve had enough relationships that involved sex and didn’t end up being serious to feel like I’ve been merely a cock socket more than [...]
I Hate This Part
It never fails. He’s in and out of my life, making me promises .. promises I hardly believe, yet I always have hope. Somehow my mind seems to always erase the bad and try to dig for the good. Somehow I continue to love him in a morbidly masochistic kind of way. I’m not in [...]
And Now He’s Gone ..
When I made THIS POST I thought more than anything in the world that’s what I wanted. For my son to know who his father was. But why when I got him and his cooperation I didn’t have not one good feeling about it and instead was terribly apprehensive and constantly on the verge of [...]
This is About Our Son!
So why is he saying he wants to get with me? Like seriously. And when I say “I hope our son inherits your musical talent. Maybe you’ll work with him someday on your instruments!” during our conversation his reply should not be: “I was just remembering .. WOW you gave great head ” Nor should [...]
I Don’t Know
So I talked to Daddy today. We had a long conversation about Jack and he’s decided that he’s happy and hopes to meet him soon. I don’t know what to make of any of this. I don’t know what to do with what I’m thinking or all these different emotions .. from each end of [...]
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