Raw and Honest Blog of a New Single Mom

I am a single mother of a biracial baby boy just trying to make it on my own. This journey is hard, yet rewarding. Blogging is my therapy, these words are my heart, and people doing better and being inspired by what I have written is my passion and hope.

This is About Our Son!

So why is he saying he wants to get with me? Like seriously.
And when I say “I hope our son inherits your musical talent. Maybe you’ll work with him someday on your instruments!” during our conversation his reply should not be:
“I was just remembering .. WOW you gave great head ”
Nor should he [...]

I Don’t Know

So I talked to Daddy today. We had a long conversation about Jack and he’s decided that he’s happy and hopes to meet him soon.
I don’t know what to make of any of this. I don’t know what to do with what I’m thinking or all these different emotions .. from each end of the [...]

Dear Daddy

Why do I have to go through this shit all over again? I spent my whole pregnancy dealing with this and finally came to a point where I was OK with my situation as a single mother. I was OK with him not being around, I became OK with the fact that he’s a drug [...]

Fear of My Child’s Father

So I did respond to Daddy. I just couldn’t help myself because I’m tired of the way he treats me. I let him abuse me verbally and emotionally for so long. I let him make me feel like shit .. I just kept my mouth shut. I quietly hoped if I didn’t egg him on [...]

HE’S NOT MINE!!!!!!

Yup. That’s what daddy randomly left to me today in offline IM.
DADDY: (29/4/09 12:20 PM): HES NOT MINE!!!!
Oh fucking really?
You know, I can’t decide if I seriously wanna reply this fuck back and say “No he’s not yours, he’s MINE because as of today you haven’t done a damn thing for him except lend [...]

Single Deadbeat “Fathers”

I’m judgmental of single fathers. I admit it, but not in a way that you would think.
I’ll start off by saying I’m in no position to be dating right now. I’m just not ready. But I will converse. I’ve come to find that I am quick to shun and feel sour about any guy who [...]

My Son is Gorgeous :)

I got my 3D/4D ultrasound of my Little Precious today and wow, I’m speechless. I’m so proud and so amazed to see what I have created. To watch him move around, yawn, wipe his eyes and just BE in his little element. He’s so gorgeous and so amazing, I just wanna show him off to [...]

Too Much Information

I have a habit of TMI. Maybe because at the time it doesn’t seem like TMI since I’m an open person who really has nothing to hide, but I’m beginning to think that I go too far. For instance today two of my family members asked if I had spoken to Daddy recently and instead [...]

Why Doesn’t He Care?

I’m feeling so frustrated with Daddy right now. My temper is fuming and I type this as anger-tears flood out of my eyes down onto my laptop keyboard.
I can’t stop thinking about it. It’s a permanent thought that’s killing me right now. It’s starting to hurt me all over again that he doesn’t care about [...]

Cussed Daddy Out

With my pregnancy half over I’d been fighting back and forth with the decision of whether or not to tell Daddy anything about his baby as sort of an FYI just so he can never say that even though he’s made no moves to include himself in our lives, that I never did anything to [...]

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