Holidays and Baby
I haven’t been online much at all the past week or two because my mom has had this new obsession with me with me and my son spending the night at her house. She will actually plead for us to which makes me feel bad saying no. I guess she’s really lonely or something .. [...]
My First Week Being a Mother: Things I’ve Learned!
My first week as a mom. This is such a huge change and it’s kinda like a whirlwind that I’ve been blindly tossed into over night. Some things about motherhood have so far been expected, but I kind of have had to realize how severe they are, especially being a single mother. While so far [...]
Baby Shower Pictures
Dang it’s been about a year and a half since I updated! I’m just coming off the baby shower weekend and had a great time. There was some (lots) drama between the family getting frustrated and going for each other’s necks and the cake lady canceling our cake at 9pm the night before the shower, [...]
The Attack of Momzilla?
The planning for the Baby Shower has begun and it’s already a bit of a disaster. I feel like I have to get involved because everyone wants things their way without first consulting me and taking into consideration my style and what I might like or even listening to me.
First my cousin approached me a [...]
Too Much Information
I have a habit of TMI. Maybe because at the time it doesn’t seem like TMI since I’m an open person who really has nothing to hide, but I’m beginning to think that I go too far. For instance today two of my family members asked if I had spoken to Daddy recently and instead [...]
My Baby’s Sex Confirmed :D
Wow, soooo delayed follow up post! I was celebrating my baby all yesterday. I had my ultrasound appointment, my mom was my guest. We sat down nervously and anxiously awaiting what we might see on the grainy black and white ultrasound monitor. I had no idea what was going on or what was being seen [...]
Reoccurring Nightmares
I have the weirdest nightmares sometimes .. like every few days I have about Daddy and they’re all the same but different. Basically in every dream he either kidnaps the baby or does something bad to it .. or he beats or murders me .. then kidnaps the baby. I have no idea why I [...]
So It Continues ..
I had a fight with my mom and my aunt today. They came over just to visit, but it turned into a bitchfest of how I’m not doing anything right and how I’m the worst parent ever so far. My apartment isn’t perfectly clean and thats unacceptable. I have the wrong kind of dishes, I [...]
Lonely, Depressed, Distressed …
Today I just had a realization of how alone I am. How upside down my world is. How my life is nothing like I imagined. How I feel so ashamed and disappointed with myself.
Saying I’m alone could be a huge stretch, I do have family members, most of which are excited about my child .. [...]
