For one, I just noticed that all of the toxic people in my life have been weeded out in some way or another. The last few people that I held on to because of boredom, familiarity, or just to have someone are gone and it feels so good.

The guy I’ve been seeing, the guy I occasionally mention here but never talk about because I’ve always been aware he was no one special and we were going no where, is GONE. And I’m happy. I feel peaceful. I’m so relieved to be 100% single instead of “mostly single”.
I no longer give a shit what Daddy is doing and why he is not here. I don’t miss him at all And I’m, for once, being completely honest when I say that.
I’m happy to finally be free of all drama. Especially drama that involves men.

I’m eating better. I’m exercising. I’m spending more quality time with my son, and he’s growing like a weed turning out to be an amazing, smart and healthy baby. I feel good, content. I’m becoming happy with myself and with my life. It’s been nearly a year since I’ve felt completely OK. I feel like things are looking up me.

No, life isn’t perfect. I’m taking a lesson in frugal living right now as it’s been predicted that the forthcoming months will be tough on us financially. But I feel humbled and optimistic. I will do whatever I can to keep a roof over our head, my bills paid, our tummies fed and my son in clean clothes and diapers.
I see this as a chance for me to grow up and stop spending emotionally. Also a realization that money won’t always come easy, and that I really do need to pay off my credit card debt once and for all. Monthly payments to cards suck.

I’m in a total nesting mode. My apartment is so cluttered and unorganized. It’s making things feel so cramped so I’m working on this now, then I plan to redecorate. Arrgh. Back to it before Jack wakes up!