Raw and Honest Blog of a New Single Mom

I am a single mother of a biracial baby boy just trying to make it on my own. This journey is hard, yet rewarding. Blogging is my therapy, these words are my heart, and people doing better and being inspired by what I have written is my passion and hope.

I Hate This Part

It never fails. He’s in and out of my life, making me promises .. promises I hardly believe, yet I always have hope. Somehow my mind seems to always erase the bad and try to dig for the good. Somehow I continue to love him in a morbidly masochistic kind of way. I’m not in [...]

I’m Trying to be Nonchalant About It

So I talked to him. I don’t even want to say his name. He apologized for disappearing out of my life for the past 2 months and went on to attempt a deep conversation with me. “I want to change my life”, he said. “I realize that I’ve done a lot to fuck things up, [...]

Getting Stronger .. and Stranger

I woke up this morning with a whole new attitude, a fed up one. I’m tired of feeling hurt, feeling used, feeling pissed, feeling heartbroken, feeling disappointed. I’m coming to terms with being pregnant .. it isn’t so bad really. But I’ve let all of these people into my life, into my heart, into my [...]

Feeling Meh, New Look for Blog

I feel so sick, meh. I spent all of yesterday pretty much crying my eyes out, having a mental break down, dabbing into depression, being mad at Thumper, being mad at men, being mad at love, being mad at my life in general, feeling insecure, feeling inadequate. This morning all that was still there too. [...]

More Heartache for Mommy

So Thumper broke up with me this morning. Everything was going fantastic for us, or so I thought. However, I could sense in the past couple of days that something was wrong as he suddenly pulled away from me, so today I decided to finally ask him to talk to me about it. Long story [...]