When I got there I helped set up his locker and let him roam around a little bit. It kinda made me wanna cry just watching him explore new surroundings with big eyes, awe, and being a little bit shy around the older babies. It was the cutest thing ever. DAMMIT! I’m upset that I forgot to charge my digicam and couldn’t take pics of the occasion.

Anyway, his report is that everyone loved him and found him to be so sweet and cute, but they said he cried a bit and refused to eat. DOH! I completely forgot that when in new surroundings Jack doesn’t eat. He might blend in and be sociable, but on the inside he’s too overwhelmed by what’s going on to eat or nap. Crap! My poor baby went nearly a whole 8 hours with little food.
Also I noticed that they asked for permission to feed him cereal, fruits/veggies and for me to make up his bottles. On his chart I see they tried feeding him nude cereal, nude veggies and most likely cold bottles. My son won’t eat this. He needs bottles to be room temperature or at least with most of the cold knocked off. Also he will only eat solids if they’re mixed together. I’ll have to bring this up tomorrow and see if they’re willing to go the extra steps for him. It’s also not a big deal for me to bring food premixed together, I just assumed they would.

Overall things went well. I got much needed grocery shopping done and I finally got time to sit down and work in peace. Tomorrow I need to get laundry done and clean up a little, and after that I should be able to devote most of the time to work. I do want to create a little schedule that allows me to get a work out in before I go pick him up. Maybe next week I will start doing this.

So for my search ..

Day Care#1 was a sty. It was disgusting. I mean toys (the toys it did have like 3 little pieces and 6 children had to share them), the equipment was from the 1980s and the place reaked of mildew. Eww no thanks.

Day Care#2 Seemed really nice at first until the teacher who was telling me about their policy repeatedly interrupted to yell at one little baby boy to “LAY DOWN! NOW!”. Definite NO!

Day Care#3 Wasn’t really bad per say. I just didn’t get a comfortable feeling about it.

Day Care#4 is the one I believed to be the one. The Director seemed genuinely nice and patient, as did the teachers. The babies seemed to love them and it was a clean environment that everyone seemed to be having fun in. Plus it wasn’t too big, so my son would be able to get attention and I felt like overall it was a place he could have fun in while mommy is away. I just didn’t get any bad feelings there at all. Hope I’m right.

I honestly can’t wait for him to start. There’s so much that needs to be done around here that I simply have no time or energy to do. I’m just a bit disappointed that their opening isn’t until the beginning of March, but since I felt so confident wit them I figured it would be worth the wait and put down a deposit.

Ontop of all else my mom and I had a fight (like always lately) and I decided to cut her out of our lives until she gets her attitude adjusted.
I’ve been putting up with her bullshit since I had the baby. She treats me like I’m so stupid and such a burden to her when I rarely ever ask her for anything. Sunday morning I woke up in terrible pain which I thought I would have to go back to the hospital for so I called her and asked her to come watch my son and drop me off there. She came over bitching saying I’m ruining her life by calling her just because I’m in pain and since he’s my son I need to deal with him whether I’m in pain or not. On top of that she told me she wouldn’t take my to the hospital but she called 911 and told the EMSA to come get me even though I told her NOT to since I don’t need another $1400 medical bill.

I told her I wouldn’t treat her this way if she needed me and to think about how she would feel if I did treat her this way. She didn’t listen to one word I was saying and told me to shut up because she’s sick of me. That’s when I kicked her ass out and told her I don’t wanna see her and she’s not allowed to see my baby again. He doesn’t need to be around that type of toxic shit or witness anyone treat his mother like that infront of him time and time again. I guess obviously she didn’t take me seriously because she called me about 50 times yesterday, then she drove my aunt over and asked her to ask me if she could come up. I pretty much laughed at her and gave a big fat NO! If anything she needs time to think about how shes acting and how she can change. IF she doesn’t feel the need to change then we really don’t need her negativity.

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Anyway, so that’s the deal with my mom. Since she nor any of my family can watch my son reliably for me while I work I decided to enroll him in day care. This is so fricken hard! First of all it’s hard to find one I feel comfortable with. One where the workers seem nice andthe environment seems fun, safe and sanitary.
Second of all it’s hard to think about leaving him with strangers for a few hours a day. He’s been by my side since he was born so he has an attachment to me. I wonder which of us it’s going to be harder for. I’m sure he will be able to adapt faster. I did 2 tours today, got one more in a couple of hours and another on Thursday then I will make my decision which will hopefully be the right one.

I know in the end it will be good for me and him. I will be able to make a living for us, get a break/much needed rest and run errands. He will be able to gain a bit of independence and make new friends/be around people his age. Those are all good things right?
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I’m trying to think if anything new is going on with Jack.

- Eating solids 3x a day now. Thinking about introducing him to finger foods like cooked apples or something because he wants to feed himself.

- He understands no and is starting to learn what is OK and what is wrong. He knows he’s wrong to go into the bathroom or kitchen without mommy. That doesn’t mean he doesn’t try to sneak in anyway.

- He has his big boy bed. Initially it was hard to transition him over from cosleeping, but he spends long hours in the bed now.

- He has a love of being naked. I had to buy him overalls because he loves to take off his pants and diaper when I’m not looking. Just like his dad LOL.

That’s about all I can think of for now.