Raw and Honest Blog of a New Single Mom » missing my ex http://newsinglemama.com I am a single mother of a biracial baby boy just trying to make it on my own. This journey is hard, yet rewarding. Blogging is my therapy, these words are my heart, and people doing better and being inspired by what I have written is my passion and hope. Wed, 28 Dec 2011 05:33:56 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.2.1 Dear Daddy http://newsinglemama.com/336/dear-daddy/ http://newsinglemama.com/336/dear-daddy/#comments Mon, 20 Jul 2009 21:25:09 +0000 Bridgette http://newsinglemama.com/?p=336 Why do I have to go through this shit all over again? I spent my whole pregnancy dealing with this and finally came to a point where I was OK with my situation as a single mother. I was OK with him not being around, I became OK with the fact that he’s a drug addict and would probably never meet his son.

Still here I am 2 weeks Post Partum and all I can think of his him. I look at our baby and all I see is his face. I’ve gathered up his number, his myspace, his screen name and I’m just itching to contact him. I don’t want to be with him, I’m not even expecting him to be a real Daddy but my Lord I just want him to accept our son. I want him to remove some of this pain from my heart. I want him to see his little mini me and know that I told the truth. I want to call him and ask if we can arrange a meeting between the three of us but OH MY GOD I’m so scared. I’m scared of failure, rejection, scared this hurt will never go away. Scared my son will never know his dad. I fear so much of the unknown.

MY GOD, I’m going to call you. Can you just work with me? Can you just grow up? Can we put the past behind us and just focus on our precious son? PLEASE I’m begging you.

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