Jack is pretty much doing everything now except walking independently and it’s blowing my mind. It’s like one day he could hardly crawl all that well and that next he was crawling, climbing, standing and taking steps when holding on to surfaces. I think it was because of the exersaucer and jumperoo he received as early Christmas presents. They really seemed to up his confidence in standing/walking and built up strength in his legs. According to his doctor he’s very advanced for his age because he’s doing things typically a 9 month old would be doing. I’m so very proud, but it has it’s drawbacks as well. For one I hate that he’s impossible to change and bathe because he wants to move around so much which really frustrates me lately. Especially since more and more often he’s been getting up the back poops .. every parents nightmare.

For two, I get no sleep because I have to wake up about 50 times a night to check on him since he’s crawled off the bed more times than I’d like to count while we sleep. I’m giving up cosleeping now and purchased him a crib.

I was going to participate in Ms. Single Mama’s “New Year, New Leaf Challenge”. I wrote up a few things I want to change this upcoming year, but I never got the time to finish writing it all out so it’s sitting as a draft that I will probably post eventually even though I’m now too late to officially enter. Working more diligently is one of the things I want to do this year. I had to face it: I’m in debt. Ever since I had my boy I don’t really work much and everything I bought for him had to be charged. My credit cards have reached a balance of $3k in total. Which isn’t horrible compared to most people but that’s more than I want to owe anyone. I’ve cut them up and vow to live off cold cash or debit now.
To keep up with this vow, I had to empty out my savings account over the weekend to buy my son a bed. barricading no longer works because he can climb over anything. So now we have no savings it’s completely do or die in order to survive.

I hope by the summer to have the debt paid off and hopefully a little savings built back up.

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So I got noticed over the weekend that we finally have court with Daddy later this month. I don’t know how to feel about that. Part of me is happy to be moving forward in this child support case, the other part of me is nervous as hell to see him. It’s been over a year now and with all I’ve learned about him the past month. But I honestly don’t know how this would work out being that he’s in jail right now. He probably won’t even be there.

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One other thing I want to change is my cooking habits .. typically I don’t cook and I’m embarrassed to admit I still haven’t lost the baby weight. I bought a bunch of groceries and I’m going to cook them up and learn new recipes on the way. I’m putting myself on a low carb-ish diet because of how sedentary I am and I bought myself a Wii for Christmas that I will only buy interactive games for. I’m loving DDR!

Ok this is a start to my updates. I gotta run now to get things done while little man is sleeping.

There’s only so long that I can give into cravings and eat 4 whole Snickers bars in one sitting for dessert after devouring a cheeseburger and french fries from Friday’s and say it’s just hormonal cravings.

Frankly, I’ve had enough! Being a fat blob isn’t me and it definitely isn’t anywhere near that hot, MILF body I envision myself someday! (LOL) So I’m giving it up and today I’m starting over. For real this time. No more excuses. No more giving up. No more failing.

I’m even posting my before and after pictures to get things started. (Click to make them larger if you want)

Before I began baking my precious bundle of baby joy:

After serving him hot, fresh and toasty:

There. I’ve put myself out there. October I have to post new pics of my current body and if I don’t look at least slightly different .. you guys, my readers, can e-kick my ass and call me Fatty Cakes or Chubby Wubby or Lard Ass or something to make me realize how much I suck.

I wasn’t exactly happy with my pre-baby body, but I hope to get back there by Christmas .. and then better by my birthday. My goal is to be more lean and muscular .. but that’s so far off for now. I just want to worry about the fat first and losing it.

I won’t bore you guys with workout talk and specifics of my beta-planned routine, so I’ll just leave this by saying “Hai thurr, MILF-Bridgette .. I’m coming to get ya, baby!”

Pounds Lost: 0
Pounds to Lose: 60