Raw and Honest Blog of a New Single Mom

I am a single mother of a biracial baby boy just trying to make it on my own. This journey is hard, yet rewarding. Blogging is my therapy, these words are my heart, and people doing better and being inspired by what I have written is my passion and hope.

I’m Back and Missing Body Parts

December has been such a crazy month. Two surgical procedures within weeks of one another? Ooo wee! First was getting my wisdom teeth cut out the first week of December and I have to say that was an insufferable hell to live in. Just when things had started to get better, last weekend I began [...]

Week 40

Hello everyone! This is the big week! (I hope). I’m hoping baby Jack Jack and my body cooperate and grant my wishes. As of last week I was still dilated at 0 so my doctor and I started talking about induction. If he’s not here this week, next week he would like to thin out [...]

Is He Here Yet?

I’m still here, Jack still in tact. Had my 38 week appointment today and the doc said the baby has dropped but my body has made no progress, no dilation. Damn damn. I’ve tried everything I know .. sex, squats .. no help. I REALLY don’t want to be medically induced!
Yeah life is miserable right [...]

36 Weeks – No Progress!

Wednesday I had my 36 week appointment. I’m beginning to hate my prenatal appts because lately it seems my doc overbooks and I end up waiting hours before he sees me for only about 5 minutes. It’s getting so frustrating because I do have a life outside of visiting them, but I only have to [...]

There’s a Watermelon in my Belly

I feel horrible. I can always tell when my baby is growing and my belly is expanding because my insides move and I get this cramping feeling against my stomach and my lower back and well .. my body feels like I’m growing an award-winning sized watermelon inside. It sucks! I don’t even feel like [...]

Boy or Girl?

Today is the day. Today I find out my baby’s sex (if the baby is willing to cooperate and not torture mommy any longer!)
I’m so nervous. I feel like I’m going on a blind date with someone I’ve been getting to know over email and occasional phone calls for the past 4 months. Only it’s [...]

I’m the Happiest Woman in the World! :)

I had an OBGYN appointment today .. listened to baby’s heartbeat, got my blood work done (which I actually survived ok except when I fainted afterward in the hallway for some reason? They’ll check the baby for Down Syndrome and Cystic Fibrosis through my blood) but .. I’m REALLY happy because next Thursday I GET [...]

Kicks and Splotches

My little monster .. God bless him (or her. I call it him for now) he’s been driving his mommy crazy because he’s turned into such a little kicker. Especially when Mommy is really exhausted and trying to sleep .. the positions she loves aren’t good enough so he kicks her into something he’s happy [...]

Baby Must-Haves

I’m starting to realize things and I’m starting to guess Mr. Perfect was more perfect in my eyes than in reality. Maybe he’s just normal? Maybe I’m sensitive because I’m tired of being around people with addictions. To hear the sweetest guy I’ve ever known brag about how much he intakes, how he feels like [...]

Cravings and Urges

For some reason right now I feel compelled to call Daddy. Why? I have no idea. My fingers have been twitching to do this for awhile now. I don’t really have anything to say to him, nothing to ask him, nothing to share. I just wanna do it. I’ve been fighting off the urge though [...]

keep looking »