I Don’t Know
So I talked to Daddy today. We had a long conversation about Jack and he’s decided that he’s happy and hopes to meet him soon.
I don’t know what to make of any of this. I don’t know what to do with what I’m thinking or all these different emotions .. from each end of the [...]
Where Are You?!
Day 6, no call from Daddy
I’m still counting, still caring. How long is he going to ignore us? What’s he doing right now? Does he ever think of me and baby? If so what kind of thoughts cross his mind? Does he still talk about us? If he does what does he say?
Ugh [...]
I Called Him
I feel stupid because since Friday I’ve called the father of my baby maybe about 10 times. I was under the impression that he had blocked me because every time I called it would ring once and start playing music which I assumed was his voice mail so I would hang up and call again [...]
I Sleep So I Can’t Feel
I’ve slept a lot today. Mostly so I can pretend that none of this is real right now. Yes, I’m still confused, trying to find out what to do, what I’m going to do with my life, my child. It’s so hard.
On Friday when I left the Dad of my kid I was very emotional [...]
Having Second Thoughts Today
Another day and I am trying to get by. I managed to successfully wake up this morning and see that the father of my child had not called me, messaged me or emailed me (the last time I have talked to him is Friday) and I did not cry.
I managed to go through most of [...]
